The Crystal Avatar

Hello All,

Well folks, I’ve finally improved to the point where I can sit at my computer for more than a half-hour at a time.

Mid January, I went into a funk, and just now am recovering from it! I was sitting on the couch one afternoon, when I threw my arms in the air and said, “I don’t feel good, Danny.” Just like that, my nightmare began. Somehow, a bacterial infection had made its way throughout my body and into my knee replacement. I literally couldn’t walk! I dragged myself to my PCP for an immediate checkup, but blood work and x-rays of my knee had to be performed before diagnosis. The next morning, my doctor called with the news. My white blood levels were 15,000 and other parts of my body were shutting down. It was already too late. I was rushed to the hospital that morning in shock and suffering from chills that were relentless. That began my antibiotic and knee surgery nightmare that has lasted six weeks and counting.

I was stabilized at a local hospital, and four days later went to the Mayo to begin the process of removing the bacterial infection from my body and my knee. We’ll skip the details of the pain, but suffice to say I did a lot of soul searching and ended up saying the same sentence over and over, “God Grant Me The Serenity To Accept the Things I Cannot Change.” That’s it! That sentence kept me fighting. Two operations on my knee later, and with my body slammed against a brick wall, I’m now getting well enough to say . . . “What to hell? I didn’t expect that!” My lymphoma from the leukemia soared as it tried to stop all the infections raging throughout the organs in my body. I still am lumpy and bumpy in all the wrong places.

Our daughter, Carolynn, flew in from Ventura, and I know that Danny and I couldn’t have done it without her. She was an angel and a meany, all rolled into one, and it worked! I began to heal. She was merciless when needed and gentle and kind when it was called for. I’m sure behind my back she shed more than one tear, but in my presence, she didn’t take failure as an option. God bless daughters. She also took care of her Dad and was as firm and gentle with him as she was with me. She’s my hero of the year. Maybe even a lifetime of many heroes that has touched my life. Danny and I are soooo grateful, and grateful doesn’t even describe what she did for us. Unconditional love would be closer. Danny went down to the jewelry store and bought her a gift of two hearts in one for a gift after she left and sent it to her. I’m sure she’ll treasure it for a lifetime, as he isn’t usually so sentimental. She and her Dad bonded through the hard time of caring for Mom and that was special beyond description.

Yesterday, I went to the dentist and had a infected tooth removed. I’ve found out that even an infected tooth can cause serious damage to an entire body, and that infections do so love joint replacements. I ’m not sure the damage I suffered was from the tooth, but I wanted it out of my mouth, as I heard horror stories of what an infected tooth can do to a body. Ironically, I was scheduled to have the tooth removed the day after I fell ill. The doctors at the Mayo and the infectious disease people aren’t sure what caused the massive infection, but I am being infused twice daily by Doctor Dan with massive antibiotics, sucked right into a pick line in my arm. Yow! Three weeks to go.

That’s it for now folks. It’s been rough and tough, but I’m slowly soaring toward recovery . . . for now . . . and with the care of many angels.

Love Forever . . . Jaye Bartlett

Hello All,

Well, It’s 2010. A New Year and a New Time. To tell you the truth, I’m actually one of the few people who seemed to appreciate 2009. I believe that we have to go through rough patches to eliminate the errors from our pasts. It’s like a cleansing of sorts. Rough patches are absolutely necessary for us to go forward with new insights into our human natures. If we had remained on our paths of destruction and absolute greed, we would have destroyed our infrastructure. Once the soul of a Nation is destroyed, it is almost impossible to fix it again. Then, where would we have found our lives? At the mercy of another country that doesn’t have our advantages or freedom? We are so lucky to live in a country that has the faith and the freedom to say . . . “One God, Indivisible, with Liberty and Justice for all”.

We actually lucked out on 09, and our misdeeds and unhealthy lifestyle smacked us in the face before we totally sank into darkness and depression. If my words seem harsh, they are meant to be. I realize a lot of people lost jobs, and a lot of people had to cut back, lose homes, jobs, cars, savings, etc., but in the long run, we’ll all survive and find a new way, and a stronger way to go forward into a changed life. We’re resilient people here in the U.S. of A. We won’t allow ourselves to fail. We always find a way back to the top. Technology has provided us with a Global network of insights and understanding. Something the planet has never before experienced. We instantly “see” and “feel” the plight of our brothers and sisters on our flat screen TV’s and Internets. How can we ignore the fact that we all live on one planet, as one people, and what affects one, affects us all. If we can’t feel the depth of all humanity, then perhaps we are lacking something within ourselves. Jesus taught that one man alone wouldn’t change much of anything in a decisive moment of disagreement, as we tend to take sides and fail to see both sides of an issue. On the other hand, as a group, we are able to affect changes in our lives and the lives of others because we are forced to see both sides of impending issues and then decide on the best way to do something about it. With the addition of more than one voice (in agreement) we are able to take a step forward in humanity as a whole. The fact that we can sit down at a table with our brothers and sister around the world, make meaningful decisions and changes, and talk together, is a huge step in the right direction.

So, in closing, my prediction for 2010 and beyond is that we will continue to become a global economy with multiple issues of environment, governmental problems, monetary systems, etc., shared and shouldered by multiple voices of power and political parties – worldwide. We will become more and more familiar and cognizant of one another and of the family of earth relationships to one another within our various governmental – systems. Awareness is the only way to Light and Love. The only way!

Love, Jaye Bartlett

Wow! Christmas Day was fun fun fun! My friend and attorney, David and family, along with their family extensions and friends, arrived from Phoenix for Christmas dinner and festivities. The dinner was spectacular (if I do say so myself) and the guests were loaded up with Christmas cheer. The kid’s were funny, witty, and full of it!!!. Ari, Jane, (Ari’s girlfriend from Mass.) and Ari’s sis, Sarah, are the 19 to 23 year old age group of guests and they are insightful and filled with life and wonder. Ari and Jane live in L.A. and work in the entertainment business. Their stories were telling and delightful about the film industry and their perception of it. After dinner, they all went into Prescott and enjoyed the wondrous lights of the town square, along with . . . (of course) an Irish toddy at the famous Whiskey Row.

Danny and I have been watching the entire seven seasons of the “Soprano’s” for the Christmas/New Years respite. What a great series. I never watched it while it was on television, so we bought it for Christmas, and we’ve really gotten into the Badda Bing thingy of the “family”. Honestly now . . . can the real mob families of today be as violent as the Sopranos? If so, yikes! Those guys kill people (usually someone they know) then go home and eat dinner? Maybe I really don’t want to know! I guess I never paid much attention to mob families and their happenings before. I have read the books about the Capone’s and other East Coast mob families from the twenties and thirties but wow! This is in living color? We’re into season two and we’re into the actors and their problems, along with Tony and his ever changing gang of mobsters and wannabe’s. What a series.

We had snow a few days before Christmas, but it went off in a day. The Mingus Mountains around our valley are covered in white snow capped peaks. It’s quite beautiful.

The dogs have a bunny to play with that has taken up residents in our back yard. They think of it as a play toy that they chase when they go outside. Lady Bug got caught in the fence the other day, trying to get through and chase Bunny. She was half way through, shoving her little body to the max, trying to get through the slatted fence, but alas, she wasn’t small enough. It took some effort to pull her back through the fence to safety. Might be time for us to do something else with the fence so she won’t try squeezing through again. Danny bought rabbit food and they eat it all every day, so I expect we’ll have bunnies around for the dogs to chase for some time (or) until spring anyway.

Will write again on New Years,

Love, Jaye Bartlett

Hi All,

I was listening to a couple of women yesterday talking about the Christmas Spirit that seemed to be missing from their lives this year. All of a sudden I had this sad feeling of remorse, thinking . . . I’m happy, and I’m dying. What’s wrong with me? I should join the bogeyman and the naysayers and hate Christmas and life too. Nah, I thought, to heck with them, I love every day that I’m allowed to experience life and all its beauty and goodness. I mean, sometimes it takes a time line to get over one’s ego-self and recognize how precious time really is. Not a negative thought should escape into the super-consciousness of mankind from anyone’s lips if they’re alive and have a full plate of food to eat come dinnertime. When we already have massive problems in the world, why contribute to more negativity when we have a humble but wondrous life waiting to live out with the miracle of time?

In reflecting back on 2009, I have to thank the lucky stars that be have aligned themselves in my favor. I’m still doing well with my leukemia and lymphoma. I’m stable and feel like I can whup the world with my positive attitude in place. I have mostly good days and some not so good days and even the not so good days are gifts. The good in my life far outweighs the negative.

My show, The Land Of I, is still marching forward towards become a reality. The Land Of I has been years in the works, and despite what people may think, I’ve heard the whispers of talk from others behind my back. There are many people who feel I should give up and let my dream go. Concentrate on dying and spending time with family and friends. But I refuse to give up on my dreams. I feel that along with dreams, come many trials and tribulations. I believe people who whisper their defeatisms are people who refuse to dream for themselves and are fearful of trying for something more than the ordinary, everyday . . . piece of life.

Presently, my investors are working to come to the U.S. after the New Year, and we’ll move into finalizing the Land Of I contract. It could all stop at some point for one reason or another, but I believe it will all happen. When I sat down to do my “Bucket List” a few years ago, I placed the Land Of I at the top of the list of accomplishments I’d like to see come into fruition. Then, I began to see it happen. Every single day when I open my eyes to the day, I picture the episodes unfolding and on television, worldwide. I see the characters in 3/D, laughing, playing, and evolving. I don’t allow time to get in my way of my dream. I simply keep on with the process of dreaming, and I gently prod my investors and team toward the goal of production.

Do I ever think of failing? No! Failure is not an option. It’s hard to explain, but every one of my children’s characters is an intricate part of myself. They make me who I am, and who I want to be. They’re all connected to me within my PSI, and . . . they live in the unfolding vision of goodness and rightness within my soul. The dream for me is one of happy endings and hopeful possibilities and of happily ever after. The unfolding of the dream is as important as the reality of the dream going into production and reaching children around the world. Am I afraid of the failure of my show? Of others not buying it? Of children not liking it? No! Failure (for me) is to give in to fear and NOT fulfill my dreams. I’m simply trying to do something that I know is right. Something that’s kind and useful as a teaching tool for children around the world. I’m betting on the dream, and I invite you all to dream along with me and bring the Land Of I into reality.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year Everyone,

Jaye Bartlett